Katy Perry Had “Situational Depression” After Sluggish Album Sales

"There are a lot of people who are self-medicating through validation in audiences."

Pop singer and American Idol judge Katy Perry is opening up about her bouts with depression.

In a new interview with Vogue Australia, the “Roar” singer revealed she was heart broken last year when her latest album, Witness, failed to connect with audiences.

“I have had bouts of situational depression and my heart was broken last year because, unknowingly, I put so much validity in the reaction of the public, and the public didn’t react in the way I had expected to … which broke my heart,” she said. “Music is my first love and I think it was the universe saying: ’Okay, you speak all of this language about self-love and authenticity, but we are going to put you through another test and take away any kind of validating ’blankie.'” Then we’ll see how much you do truly love yourself.”

To put that self-love into practice, and “reboot” her system, Perry says she spent a week at a mental health retreat in California at the Hoffman Institute, reconnected with her spirituality, and now feels rejuvenated—and recommends others do the same.

“That brokenness, plus me opening up to a greater, higher power and reconnecting with divinity, gave me a wholeness I never had. It gave me a new foundation. I recommend it to everyone, my good friends and other artists who are looking for a breakthrough. There are a lot of people who are self-medicating through validation in audiences, through substances, through continually running away from their realities—denial, withdrawal. I did that for a long, long time too.”

Lamar Dawson is a pop culture junkie and pop diva addict living in Manhattan. Follow him on everything @dirrtykingofpop.