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Trans Writer And Her Sister Pen Beautiful Essay About Growing Up Together

"Here was someone that was sure to see me, the real me. I could only hope that she would someday understand."

Transgender activist Mandi Camille Hauwert teamed up with her sister, Rachael Ball, to write a beautiful post for HuffPost Gay Voices about their sisterhood.

The sisters write about different experiences from their childhoods, each from their own perspective. The result is a touching collection of stories that takes us into the world of a transgender child and her loving sibling.

In their differing views of bath times together, Rachael wrote:

"Bath time always turned into an all-out war, with various small toys representing soldiers on opposing sides. He was a little mean always adjusting the rules to favor his side. Whenever I had an awesome force field, he had the one and only force field breaker."

But Mandi remembers baths also being filled with confusion about who she really was.

"I never understood why my sister looked different from me. While I was still in Kindergarten our parents had us take baths together, usually while mom washed our hair. But I was confused, frustrated even. Looking at her I knew that I wasn't like most girls. I thought that perhaps it may just fall off."

After sharing other beautiful childhood memories, the siblings began to discuss how things got a little more challenging as they entered young adulthood.

Rachael wrote:

"Childhood passed us by; mine came to an abrupt stop. At 16 I was pregnant. My big brother seemed to look at me differently that day as I broke the news. I had rarely seen him cry and yet he wept. I faced a new challenge scared and afraid but, my big brother enlisted and sailed far away. I wanted to hold onto him.... life had other plans for us both."

And Mandi responded with her version of the same event.

"Only months before my sister's unexpected pregnancy, I survived a suicide attempt. I couldn't bear to live, to look my family in the face pretending to be their son. My parents didn't need another shock. I made the choice to leave and moved to Japan with the Navy. I am so sorry sissy for leaving you when you needed me most."

The whole thing closes which each sister discussing her take on Mandi's eventual transition.

"Watching her lay there in a hospital bed, through her winces of pain, I was relieved; happy to share this moment with her," wrote Rachael. "She had been reborn. Now everyone would see her. As my brother she'd always looked out for me. Now I was there to hold her hand. The sister I had always dreamed of, there all along. I see you Sissy and you are amazing!"

And Mandi closed the piece, sharing what it meant to her to always have her younger sister's love and support.

"Throughout our lives, all I ever wanted was to be a big sister. As I was wheeled into my gender confirmation surgery, I took comfort in knowing that my family was there. That when I woke up, she would be there to support me, her big sister. And to you, sissy, thank you for seeing me, for accepting me, and for loving me."

Head to HuffPost to read their beautiful story in its entirety.

h/t: HuffPost

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