She had trouble finding her smile, but no one can say she didn’t serve face.

In the latest episode of Whatcha Packin’, Michelle Visage digs deep with this week’s chopped RuPaul’s Drag Race contestant, Nina Bo’nina Brown, about the highs and lows of his season 9 journey.

Rocking a bearded mug, Nina opens up about his crippling self-doubt during the competition. “I think that’s been a battle I’ve had for a while, because I was really surprised by the love that I did get from you guys on the stage,” he says. “It didn’t register to me. For some reason, it still wasn’t enough.”

After auditioning for the show five or six times, he still has trouble being proud of the fact he made so far.

So if Nina came back for All-Stars, what would he do differently? “Hopefully be stronger and really, truly believe that I am meant to be there,” he says.

“Whoever told you that you’re not good enough was wrong," Visage insists. “You’re amazing.”

Watch the full interview below.

RuPaul’s Drag Race airs Fridays at 8/7c on VH1.